Something meant for someone who was a waste of time and hopes who I tried to believe their lies.
Samahni hraktlk aasabek w narvztk ycr naarf li ghochek khayeb w mch behi lsahtek w kathart alik maadch bch tasmaa meni w maadch bch n9alkek w you don't have to deal with my craziness anymore . I don't know if u recieved my last message but I wanted to make sure. Thank you so much for doing that, I hope you know that I wasn't ignoring you, rather afraid of your words. That's why I couldn't check for your reply. I didn't wish for it to land as a provocation or a game. However, I shouldn't bother you because you hate me. I hope you know that my intentions were good by that request, you said I should be gone. But we both know the truth,I have no self-respect; just like you said "rkhis". I would try to text you once in a while for no reason and wait for your reply for hours, I would check ur active status or if u changed ur profile picture or added new friends. I asked you to do that so I wouldn't annoy you anymore, which is funny because I was and I am doing it right now. I wouldn't be able to block you, if I do I will unblock you back by the end of the day. Somehow I stupidly wished that you would call me to tell me that there is no need for it and it can turn out for the better. I really hoped it would turn out that way. It's annoying and frustrating what I am doing, ama aaychek barcha li kotlich haja toujaa raghm li naaml fih ma kontch najem nblokik w hassit rouhi bch nkalmk mara okhra. Manaarfch alech ama hasitek mahabitch wala mayhmkch w 9albi manajamch khtr keli kolthelk b broud wala yomkn enti fhemtni bel ghalet aleh habitk tblokini, nchallah tefhmni w manghir matetnrvz ama manjmch nokeed nra esmk wala taswirtk akeka w manhwlch nkalmek, my lack of self-respect keeps telling me that there maybe a small chance baad ma nahit el block ama le kallaktk bi ma fih el kifeya baathtlk barcha marat w rokeeti shiha yecer, mch maaneha nakrhk wala haja, You will always find me where you left me but I can't let myself make you feel something negative anymore. Thank you again for trying your best with my emotions and insecurities, and if I couldn't find a way to send you anything, Happy 21st birthday (ik that's not enough and you deserve a better birthday wish). Sadly it's a Monday though. Happy Birthday for the rest of your life too. I apperciate you coming in my life, I was really happy with you and that I was able to love someone like you this way. Mercii Y.